I am still enthralled with my tangerine iMac, even though it is over a year old and falling well behind the cutting edge in terms of speed and muscle. Indeed, I like it increasingly much as it becomes more obsolete. When the new clear-shelled iMacs came out several months back, I heaved a sigh of relief. My iMac finally fit in with the rest of my favorite things--a bit out-of-date, a bit of a throwback, a lot easier to love. I owned two other non-Apple computers before my iMac, but neither had what I'm almost ashamed to say I believe my iMac has: a personality.

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Let me admit it right up front: I named my iMac less than a day after it arrived. Trusty Zachary has sat with me through countless hours of writing and checkbook balancing, saw me through the tax season, and even has encouraged me in developing my chess game. He is more a trusted personal friend than any sort of digital servant, and over time he has developed a personality and presence I no longer can ignore.

While I am admitting such things, I also should note that my fiancŽ and I have named my car, too. Weighing in at almost 70,000 miles and sporting very few problems beyond the typical oil changes and muffler replacements, my little metallic green Geo Metro is Bernie the Putt Putt, the little guy who never gives up. I talk to him at times during rough stretches of traffic, and I often pat his flank or his dashboard after a good day of road work.

What I also know is this: if polls hold true, many if not most of you have named your Mac and your car, and you too treat them like something akin to the simpleton savants of the family--a bit too slow on the uptake to be in on everything the family does, but who nonetheless are slow-witted buddies always there and ready to work with you at a moment's notice. You might cringe when either has to go to the shop, almost as though a frightened child or pet were being left alone in a hospital. You might rationalize certain quirks or oddities (malfunctions, to be honest), seeing in them the traits that make them unique.

Why do we name certain machines yet leave others to their cold inanimate existence? It cannot be a matter of mere usefulness or proximity. Imagine a person whose household was full of such "enlivened" appliances. The mind reels at the thought of Tootsie the Toaster, Larry the Lawnmower, Oliver Oven, and Lucy Lamp. And why stop there: how about Ernie the Electric Razor, Patricia Palm Pilot, and Stuart Space Heater? Far from quaint, I seriously suspect that an inclination to become friendly with all one's appliances might be grounds for psychiatric intervention. Still, most of us retain the need to name certain machines or tools, be they Zachary and Bernie for me, my mom's old Pontiac Bessie, or B.B. King's Lucille (a guitar that gets a seat next to him on every plane flight he makes, by the way).

(ed. Note- wouldn't you keep a guitar close at hand that survived a barroom burning down? TDH)

Michael S. Malone offers a starting point into understanding this phenomenon. In a recent "Silicon Insider" column, Malone finds himself baffled by the appeal of the Palm Pilot. He notes, for instance, that "some of [his] editors continuously fondle their Palm Pilots as if they were rosaries. . . . The device has become an extension of their imaginations," even though he sees his own Palm Pilot as "nothing more than a Day-Timer and phone list with a crappy data entry language." Malone eventually comes to this conclusion:

"So what is the key to the Palm Pilot's appeal? I think it is somethingirrational, and deeply human, that cannot be captured by a balance sheet. Something at the nexus of being not too complicated, not too intrusive, not too powerful, and not too pretty, appeals to us in deep, visceral ways."

"Call it the Volkswagen Bug Effect; we identify with limitations because we are limited creatures. . . ."

Whether he is right in his assessment of the specific limitations of such things is irrelevant. Instead, the crucial point is his observation of the intimacy between certain tools and their users, an intimacy arising out of identification with that tool. In the same way we root for Charlie Brown or Charlie Chaplin's Little Tramp, suggests Malone, we like to take up the cause of the cute, lovable, underachieving machine.

That initial attraction is only part of the story, though. When we name certain types of machines, something further happens: we give to them parts of our own personalities. A certain part of oneself, perhaps a part repressed or under-attended, is projected onto that machine. The personality one finds in an iMac or in one's car is a mirror held up to a little-known part of the self. In the case of B.B. King's Lucille, this is manifest. Named after a woman who died in a fire King himself barely escaped, I suspect Lucille is a projection of what might have been. He could have died there, as did the woman Lucille. His guitar (and his talent expressed through it) are perhaps a bit of survivor's guilt or maybe even the hope of life after death.

Of course, this is only conjecture. Closer to home, I do see what Bernie and Zachary represent to me. Bernie, the tiny Geo in a world of SUVs and semis, is the scrappy little guy who goes toe to toe with the big man on campus. Bernie is not afraid to zip past a semi, even as his acceleration begins to falter a bit these days and the semi's backdraft blasts at him the entire way. To be honest, his everyday minor heroics are the stuff I wish my life were made of. Zack the iMac is similar in his constant, unwavering companionship and help. They are there when I need them, and despite their limitations, they usually come through for me in the clutch.

calvin_hobbesThat sentiment is the adult version of the child's feeling for the teddy bear. A child might have a room of stuffed animals, and he or she might play often with all of them, but usually only a select few become more than toys. Bill Watterson's comic strip "Calvin and Hobbes" expressed this perfectly. Calvin is the suburban child with almost everything he wants, but it is the beat-up stuffed tiger who makes his life complete. Hobbes is friend and co-conspirator, but he also is Calvin's conscience, intellectual challenger, and protector from the monsters of the night.

Does Calvin know Hobbes is only a stuffed animal? Watterson's strip is ambiguous, since Hobbes only appears as a toy when other people are around. But when alone with Calvin, he is every bit as real as the boy himself. Does the child know that special toy is not a real person? In some ways, I suppose yes, for I recall that I treated my favorite teddy bear quite a bit differently from the family dog. All the same, it was that teddy bear who heard all the secret confessions, whom I turned to when I was sad or afraid, and who endured all the battering and tough times of earliest childhood.

Those favorite stuffed animals emerge from childhood far worse for wear, often missing eyes and sporting bald patches, full of mended seams and numerous stains. Perhaps this too is what we as adults find in those obsolete, beat-up, and hard-worked tools onto which we project personality: constant companions, protectors and champions, sharers in our work and suffering. They have traveled through life with us,
absorbing the greater part of the heavy labors we receive, and they have survived as we survive. They may be slower, more scarred, and more cranky than they were in days past, but they continue to work, and they remain ever present in our times of need.

Such a tool, then, deserves no less than to be seen for what it truly is: an extension of oneself, a piece of the multifaceted richness each
of us is to overflowing, and a part of the human spirit made manifest in the stuff of everyday existence.